Monday, July 25, 2016

My mind has been a blank journal...

My mind has been a very blank journal lately waiting for inspiration to come along and splatter itself all over it.

My mind has been a quiet seashell to which someone places their ear in and hear nothing but the sound of their blood pumping through their body.

My mind has been.... not itself. How am I suppose to create music and other amazing things when my brain comes up empty.

Not sure what to do in this situation.... but I hope it becomes something I can depend on and be creative with again.

Saddha.

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Blast From the Past

You know how they say that it's always best to leave the things from the past right there?

Well I'm the kind of person that cannot seem to do that. I'm always the person who worries and wonders what the lives of the ones I use to love are like at the moment. Especially one person and it irritates me sometimes.

The fact that she was my first love.... and that she still runs my mind. hell....

I don't know how to deal with it. I can't let her go emotionally.... I'm just glad that any time that I need her around, she's there. What hurts the most is that I eventually have to let her go and us go our separate ways. Which always hurts, but it's the only thing and best thing to do.

I still love you, I do.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

So Long. Yo, seriously. So Long!

Oh my beautiful blog *pets blog* How I've missed you.

I'm sorry I've abandoned you, I've just been so damn busy with my life and getting my shit together. I've moved so much, been trying to find myself while getting lost along the way. I've been working on positive thoughts and vibes along with teaching myself that it is okay to be alone.

Time has been on my side so far. I'm back in Nashville. For now. I finally got a new job and let that shit hole that I had before. I finally have my own place and I'm finally adulting, which to be honest, is not as fun as playing hide and go seek in the summer. But it is what I have to do....

I promise to make more time for you. There are so many thoughts in my head that I need to spill out somewhere. So I guess that I will be venting to you.

Sorry.